HaZe DaZeD

"N, ada orang suka kat aku," bisik A ke telingaku. "Sape?" "Dak form4 baru… H" Those were about the exact dialogue me & my best fren had bout 8 years ago. In the midst of heartache, a hint of hope appears. But a broken heart doesn’t mend overnight.. And A, the angel she is, being true to herself, decided to mend her wounded her heart before letting anybody in despite fren’s persuasions. But I truly understand why she did what she did… And so, H, the boy-next-door, took a step back and let the healing begin.

Years went by, success after success, ups and downs, with each other’s shoulders soggy from tears unshed… We were quite a gang, the three of us, me, A & loneliness… even through minute dalliance with shadows along the way… We stuck together, despite the distance of JB & KL… But fate has a twist of its own…

In JB, who else do I meet but Mr H himself. Despite the years, he still seems unchanged. Probably a tad talkative than he was in skool.. Ah.. the wonders of years and maturity, eh? Wasn’t abit surprised that he was still single… Hmm… A single, H single… Both never got over their lost love… Doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out what to do next! A few poking here, prodding there, pushing here, pulling there… voila! One’s asking for the other’s phone number… and the rest, as they say, are history…

A few years go by as I watch their love bloom from the sidelines.. and finally, it led to matrimonial bliss. I still remember, when A told me she wanted to get married. I was like, what’s the hurry?? We’re still young, alot of things yet to see, alot of time to enjoy our freedom. I felt that H was stealing my best fren away, and i couldn’t bear that! In my heart, I knew, I could never catch up with A, no matter what I do… Be it studies, cooking skills or maturity.. And who am I to stop what comes naturally? To stop something that I knew was right all along? So I chose happiness for A over my jealousy…

Come wedding day, I came over to fulfill my promise way back when… to be at A’s side on her big day… The Bride, The Groom, The Reception, everything about them was beautiful. A glorious dream wedding to the very end. The most memorable moment to me was when A & H was officially married on Nikah Day. As I hugged A to congratulate her, realization hit me… My best fren’s married! She’s no longer my single-carefree-gossip-shopping-mocha-sipping buddy that I can steal or disturb at any given time of the day… She’s moved on!! But I really am happy for her… she really deserves happiness in her life for what she’s given to others… And without warning, tears of happiness welled up in my eyes…

The beauty of it all is, I learn something new with every experience I go through (or in this case, what A & H went through).. Being on the sidelines, I learned that their love proved the age-old theory that true love never dies, kalau jodoh tak kemana. They actually put a face to the saying "If u love someone, let him/her go, if he/she comes back, then it was meant to be". If God wills it, you will meet your match, even if you lost them once. It gave me faith that God will give you happiness when He thinks it suits you most… I learned, that patience is a virtuous inner strength, and good things come to those who wait..

So here I am, writing this after a long break of silence, hoping to shed a slight light of hope to those who needs it. This is not meant to show off my experience, or to cause embarassment to any party, should they feel so inclined. Its just me, jotting down a lesson that’s worth telling…

Special Dedication:

To A & H, I wish you all the very best, may your marriage prosper and your love bloom forever… To H: Take care of my best fren… To A: Even though u’re a Mrs now, don’t ever forget… soul sisters forever! Luv ya loads…